peoples

i guess i just have been blessed by God that most of my co-workers like me.... at least thats what i think... i just feel like that people are really fake sometimes, especially people of this world. for this past couple weeks, i've been seeing co-workers gossiping about each other behind their backs, yet when they are in front the actual people, they pretend to be good friends with them. this is kind of bothering me because i can tell that they are not speaking in truth with love. theres no true love among them, and it just makes me shudder because i've always been around people who show true love. i guess thats why im among them, so that i can show the difference between the worldly lust and the love of God. but still, i feel alone sometimes among them, just because im not part of them, yet i know that what is better and thats enough for me. for the love of God can fill me up and satisfy me. thats all i need.

speaking of love, a friend of mine told me that she had fell in love with the wrong person. can that happen? i mean how do you know if thats the wrong/right person? i guess it just bothers me that she had already been through things like this before but yet she still doesnt understand the origin of the problem. hopefully God can use me to help her, or just bring her back to Him. its just heartbroken to see her going through had times like that, especially when its not even the first, second, or third time. hopefully she will get it this time.

i've been really tired recently. these 2 jobs are just draining so much of my energy and time. like everyday i would just go to work and go home and sleep, and thats pretty much my life. i dont even have the energy to respond emails, do some facebook duties, or even enjoy an episode of drama. sometimes i even have to sacrifice my time at church: friday nights, saturday worship practice, or even sunday school. so im really considering quitting a job. i dont if it is a good idea, if you think about it, at this kind of economy, to be able to have 2 summer jobs is pretty amazing already. plus God asks us to remain in our circumstances even if it is hard to endure, for that is the time when God can do His works through us. i dont know though, need to pray more, more, and more....