a whole "new" world

i have finally started internship this past week. i guess its a good thing i finally got out of the lazy life style that i had after school has ended. for those who dont know, i work at the department of transportation as summer intern in dc, so pretty much i have to take the metro there everyday. its pretty tiring because i have to wake up at 6 every morning to catch the metro. im just really glad that God is even using these little things to teach me different things, disciplining me.

first thing first, i have never gotten an internship before, so i was pretty anxious about it because i dont know what to expect. this past week have been pretty boring though. most of time i just sit there and read and doing research about the projects that they are currently working on. a lot times i was tempted to fall asleep on my desk (i actually have a cube, just like everyone else in the office, plus personal phone line and computer) because its really quiet in the office and people really dont care about what you doing. actually, most people do their jobs VERY SLOWLY, with many breaks in between. and that kind of environment just fosters laziness easily.

so i think it was wednesday when i was doing the usual reading and research (dont get me wrong, the projects they are doing are pretty interesting), i could start feeling my eyes closing after lunch. by the time i realized it, i really was dozing off. all of sudden, someone were talking in the cube behind me, asking about what im doing because i have been on the same page/website for the longest time. it was one of the engineers working at the office asking my supervisor's secretary. i told them that im researching about the thing that my supervisor asked me to do (which he really did). the thing is that its really busy in my office and especially the engineers because each of them have at least 2-3 projects on their hands. so that engineer proposed that i should help him with some of the tasks that he has in his hand. i mean, i dont mind doing work or anything, but i was shocked when he said that, in a shameful i guess. i think that kind of serve as a wake up call for me. from the very beginning, i treated this internship as a place where i just earn money, nothing more than that, and i obviously wasnt trying hard to do my best in doing my job (which is technically anything that i want to get involve with). to me, it was really shocking because i never had people come up to me, indirectly telling me that im not working hard. and the more i thought about it, the more i realized that i really wasnt working hard, nor working to glorify God. in fact, i was setting a really bad example as Christian, being lazy and passive about works. so the next day, i attended the staff meeting with the engineers and my supervisor. i confessed and prayed about it to God before that, and thank God that everything went well and i finally got the hang of it, developing relationship with rest of the people, and being more active and involved with their projects and such.

another thing is i met pretty interesting people at the office. the secretary of my supervisor seems to be a devoted Christian, though i havent gotten a chance to ask her about it. she has a lot of decorations on her desk, and the thing that stood out the most is her bible on her desk. its just really interesting to see that. and i also met this engineer from the office next to ours, he treated me to lunch the other day and asked about school and church and such. he also told me about the bible study that he used to attend in the department of transportation. just something that i didnt expect to have. but i guess as long as there are Christians, they will never give up on having fellowship with each other and learn more about God's work together and build each other up, no matter where the setting is.

as i mentioned before, i commute to dot with metro every morning. this past week has been really tiring, though i have just been sitting in the office. i kind of realized how hard it must be for parents to have a regular job have family to take care of, especially being a mother. you would have to do your work diligently at office, commuting back and forth, most likely serving at church as Christians, maybe take your kids to school and make them lunch before you go to work, pick them up after work and make them dinner, help them with homework and study, and most likely you would want them to have some sort of extracurricular so you would have to drive them here and there. just thinking about all those things makes me realized how hard my parents have been through just to raise me, and to be grateful about everyday.

and then, have been hanging out a lot with church kids, spending time with them and get to know them better. it has been a blessing, really taught me lots of things about building God-centered fellowships. lots of them have vacation plans and such already, so i wouldnt be able to see them as much because im leaving for HK first day of august, so i really want to spend as much time as i can with them. at the same time, i really want to see the crew and hang out with them more often, though i wish someone beside me can take that initiative and show some interests that they want to hang out too. but thats just being selfish and blaming on others. sigh.....

count down to HK: 48 days